E. Lane is the pseudonym of a veteran touring professional who has spent the better part of two decades on the road as a production manager and front-of-house engineer. Based in the Southern Hemisphere but touring globally, Lane writes candidly about the unseen realities of life behind the stage: mental health, identity, burnout, and the personal cost of chasing what you love. Life Between Load-ins is their first published essay.

• You don’t really go home — you just change beds.
• It’s possible to be burnt out doing what you love.
• My brain doesn’t come with an off switch — just a dimmer.
• ADHD: All Day Hustle Disorder.